Now Playing: Album: Minecraft: Volume Alpha Artist: C418
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It’s not that I’m a huge fan of the game Minecraft, but the music is wonderful to sleep to. It’s just beautiful, relaxing, and a little mystifying. The music creates a world in itself, which is something I love.
Now: naps. What’s all the hullabaloo about anyways? Young adults, especially college students, love naps! I guess someone decided long ago that it’s a good thing to spend a couple hours in the middle of the day doing nothing at all. I really don’t get it, nor do I understand why people love naps so much. They make my mind feel weird and fuzzy for the rest of the day. It feels like they slow me down on a mental and physical level. I don’t get it.
But I am being slightly hypocritical here, because this summer, I have taken many naps. In my last post I talked about my early morning job. Well this job has more or less ruined my sleep schedule, and sometimes the only way to catch up is to take a nap. I worked this morning and when I got home, slept for over five hours. I’m honestly not proud of that.
The problem is, I needed that nap. There really isn’t any way I could have not taken it and continued to function the rest of the day. It’s pretty sad. There is, however, one thing I like about naps (and sleeping in general): they give me the chance to sit and think during the day.
Most of my critical thought about people, opinions, and beliefs is done at night, when I’m lying in my bed, trying to get to sleep. I’ll have some relaxing music on and just let the night take me where it will. When I nap, I can do the same thing in the middle of the day. The soundtrack for today’s mammoth nap was C418’s entire discography on repeat. It was nice. Although my whole day was spent at work and in bed, I still feel fulfilled. I got to lie down and think.
I’ve been thinking about college a lot lately, of course. I’m heading back to Winthrop to start my sophomore year this Thursday. All of my friends who are going to college away from Aiken are already gone, many of them having left this morning. And my high school friends just starting college have moved in too. That means I’m caught in a three-day limbo where I don’t know what to do. I guess I could start packing, but I don’t see much reason to do that more than a day before when I’m leaving.
The scariest part about everyone going back to school, including myself, is that I don’t know which friends will still want to see me after the semester’s over. They may find new, better friends that are nicer or funnier or better-looking and just kind of forget about me. I’m sure it’ll happen with a few people I consider good friends, but I’m also sure that in my life I’ll end up forgetting about people who considered me a good friend.
Over the last year, I’ve been trying to focus more on the fact that the world doesn’t revolve around me. I am not the protagonist in the book of life. I am just one character out of many. Sometimes I do good, sometimes I do bad. Getting the right perspective is just really hard.
The most I can hope for is to be a supporting character in someone else’s story.
timothy mcfall 